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I am a m2f tgirl..Now living as Jane and a medical doctor,medical student..My dream being a PHD in Neurosciences:)

Book review for Jane Vegas Pi by Jane Brooke-Move aside Batman,Here’s the girl answer to you:)

This review is from: Jane, Vegas PI (BDSM Erotica) (Kindle Edition)
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Move aside,Batman,here’s our GIRL answer to you:Jane Vegas PI!!If you ask me to describe how I felt about the book,I can say-It opened my eyes to a new world!!

This was the fastest paced book I have ever read..And I had never come across this side of the world before..I am a simple candle light dinner type of gal and could not imagine that this erotic world of BDSM(wow,the damned auto-correct tried to correct BDSM with BDRM,is this BDRM something I should know about??) existed before I came across Jane:Vegas PI..

Our world has a severe severe deficit of strong female leads..It simply does..And no other character comes to my mind other than Jane,who is a girl and you would trust her with your life!Of course there’s Xena and WWE’s Chyna,two immensely popular and powerful female characters,but their power comes at a price!Both Xena and Chyna are masculine and they lack femininity..

There comes our Jane!!She’s a genius, young MENSA hit-woman..A female James Bond if you will,yes guys!Now we have our girl-answer to your JB,take that fellas!!She is the female James Bond!!What I liked the most is,Jane belongs to my LOL texting generation!!She’s a girl who is meant for millennials and that’s why some readers who are over 40 may have wrong impression about the book,and its departure from the traditional ways of writing a book!!It’s the substance and style thats more paramount in the book then some grammatical errors!!I mean this is 2014 and people tweet in slang all the time..This is not a place to spell-check!!I mean,the way the book is written,its stunning!Its sheer erotic and is meant for THAT!!If someone wishes to foray into a literature type of book,may be you should read some academic book!!This is an erotica for millenials by millenials and ladies who are older than this,you have a chance to take a dip into our generation if you read this book!This book IS THE FUTURE!!

Now,on to the book,the book has a very unique prose.It is written by a young person and it is written in first person narrative.The book is very very fast paced as I said earlier and it may take some time before one gets used to it..I have seen earlier reviews,where they complained about not liking/understanding the book in the beginning like at first 5-20% pages,I had the same difficulties!!I would recommend to bite the bullet and read the book till 30% mark first..As I felt, I was able to get used to the flow of the book and fast pace after 30% marks as this was a whole new genre of books for me,there was obvious shock and disbelief too on my part that people can go to this extreme to find sexual pleasure and I was in awe!!But The book is very good after 30% as you get the sense of where the book is going and as you see the real Jane at that level,you want her to be your girl friend!!So my recommendation about this one of a kind book is,before you form a judgment,good or bad(very good in my eyes!),read the book till 35% or even 40%!As this is a whole new kind of book even among BDSM(Yes,this was my first book,but reading Jane got me so interested in BDSM that I have read so many BDSM books afterwards,so I know what I’m talking about,trust me!)..

Here’s why this book is very different!!This book,unlike many others,in fact most of other BDSM/Erotica books,is rich with story line too,most BDSM books are just a series of sexual encounters without any substance!Not his book though!The lead character,a MENSA genius Jane,is a benevolent hit woman who does this job to avenge the crime!!A female avenger,always my fantasy!!She is just an awkward teenager,who lives with her two pet gold fish Stella and Gumbo,I found the idea of pet Goldfish so funny and cute!!And she is rich,doesn’t need money,like Batman,her parents are dead and she has a fortune already,she is into it just for making world a better place and unlike many,she accomplishes this with guns!!Like soo many girls of my generation,she is a bisexual lady and enjoys both men and women,very open minded and yet,she is very bold,and would do anything to save the weak,the oppressed and poor!!

My highest point,the thing,the incident I liked the most was when Jane saves the cute puppy from being abused by a thug,I loved it,I cried at that moment..She takes the puppy with her and names her Beaux..I found that whole episode very cute and also when she avenges crimes,I was cheering for Jane..Her romance with a muscled AA guy was also able to melt me!!It was all very high on erotic scale..The kind of book that will blow your girl-mind away!And you might be straight as a stick,yet you will end up secretly wishing to experiment with this girl Jane!!(Its true,read the book!!)…

We all see crimes all around us,many of them so inhuman,so cruel and outrageous but we cannot do a thing about them as the law doesn’t permit that..But in our mind,many a times we feel that,if the law allowed to deal us with the crime,we would want the criminal punished like hell..And Jane fulfills this desire in us..She does this on behalf of us..And that’s the best part I loved about this book..This book,while it may belong to BDSM type,I would label it as a BDSM PLUS!!ANd while I may go on and on about how the story and characters are solid and fast paced,the book is certainly not short on its BDSM appeal!!On the contrarily BDSM label is fully suitable!!The book seems to be written by some one who has seen all of the things described first hand and by her own eyes,and that adds the element of authenticity in the book!!It will shock you,by the sheer level of eroticism,it had that effect on me!!

Coming to the erotic part(I know,you seasoned BDSM fanatics were waiting for me to come to that part for soo long!)..The book is very strong on this side since the beginning and up to 25% mark the book takes you to the underground mysterious world of BDSM in Los Angles underground scenes..You will be amazed,shocked and will be left in near disbelief as you read about the length some girls(and guys too) are willing to go to for sexual pleasure..For a simple girl like me,it was such a new world..Now that I have read so many BDSM books after reading Jane,I find this book much more authentic even then so many famous BDSM books on this side,and a super strong female superhero style character and a solid storyline only adds to the attraction of the book!!Jane is very smart,she is not afraid to go to lengths to avenge crime and has a heart of gold when it comes to save the victims!!I know I would trust my life with her!!The book takes you to dark corners of the famous LA and underground club scenes forming the BDSM life of LA..And its a wild ride!!After 30% mark,Jane the character starts developing into a female superhero and I loved that so much..

The book can be divided into like seven encounters and/or parts basically and Jane the character constantly keeps developing in the book..The closest female character that comes to my mind that is like Jane is,the character of Mary,from the Netflix move American Mary!!The way she avenges the killer of the little girl is so intense and I was cheering for Jane so much as she destroyed the villain!!Money is the last thing Jane cares about in the book..She is really a hit woman with an edge f you will!!She donates all the money she gets from her hit jobs to charities,that shows how good as a human she is,just like a female batman,she is a benevolent vigilante,and may be,just may be,the nerdy guys now can fantasize about a new girl Jane,other than that wonder woman(we all know they all have wonder woman as their only and imaginary girlfriends!!I am talking to you comic nerds!!But its kinda weird as their nerd dads also had the same gf,the same wonder woman,so you have a wonder woman suitable for your age!Cheers!!)…

How Jane is different than Xena,Chyna or Wonder woman(I am a fan of all of these 3 by the way!) can be described in many aspects..She doesn’t lose her femininity to appear strong in order to fight the bad guys(and a bad girl too in the story)..She rather uses her sheer beauty and delicate body and her MENSA super brain to surprise villain into thinking of her as just an eye candy,a bimbo and this makes them complacent and then she goes all out on them,inflicting the punishment on the thugs that would invoke the fear of god into the hearts of these evil doers!!She this way,doesn’t lose but uses her femininity,and thus a real feminist superhero in my eyes,very powerful and dependable girl,this Jane is..And She is very much into women rights too..Finally we girls have our batman and that’s the best part of the book,and unlike the JB and Batman these nerdy boys have,our version of the same is very very sexy!!Take that boys..Boohoo!!

In the end,I loved the book very much,a full five star!!And it is a book that will fulfill your thirst for BDSM as well as a desire to read a good storyline ,written in a totally new way and that’s why I would highly highly recommend that you read the book and this will open you to a whole new kind of 21st century literature A real gem,a BDSM PLUS and like me,you too can join the Team Jane!In fact,I would love to see Jane made into a TV Show as it is soo ready to go for that!!Woohoo!



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The experience of being Jen

So,what’s it like to finally being YOU??

I must’ve wondered a million times about this,I couldn’t let her out and be her(Jen) as I am from a relatively conservative family,instead i gave my all to my studies,result-I did good in study,i am a doctor at 25,at least i have hopes for a good positive future!!

Now that I have chosen to go ahead and being Jen,I feel empowered..

I dunno what lies in the future,it’s like knowing you are on a treasure hunt,arena surrounding you is absolutely foggy,you cant see at a distance more than 5 feets far,yet you see signs that you’re on the right track!!You FEEL it and keep on going!!Its awesome and fearsome at the same time!!I’m happy about me going for M2F and wouldn’t worry/obsess over the future!

In my today’s blog post I want to discuss my transition in past 20 days!!I began living as Jen on 21 November..At first,in the week 1,it was unreal,,unbelievable!I couldn’t stop looking at my mirror,and this was so not me!!I used to hate the mirror!!Thats what happens when you are born into a wrong body,a girl in a male(ugh!) body!!You don’t want to see THAT,like ever!!

That changed!I spent hours looking at the NEW yet THE ORIGINAL me!!Styling my hair(wig) applying my newly acquired lip gloss!I luved it all!!

I took hundreds of my photos!!Now this is shocking for some1 who knew the (ugh!!) old me!!As I have just 8 photos taken of me in last 7 years!!But my self-perception has drastically changed!!For much better!!

I do believe this is very important from self-esteem perspective,i mean I have read in my psych text books that some 80-90%(yes,me too,at some low points of my life,2 times)have suicidal thoughts as we are just unable to fight this disgusting feeling we get living in a wrong body!!The fault too lies like 90-10%,I blame the society 90% for this low self esteem as the society doesn’t allow us to be ourselves and mortifies us if we do!!10% I guess lies within that LGBT person,how you want a ‘way out’??You can go on being ””Normal” and unhappy or be YOU and happy yet you have to take a lot of flake!But there’s not much you can do!

My planning is a long term one,this is my phase 1-totally psychological phase,I just live as Jen,talk like her,think like her!!Be her!!

Phase 2 will be psychological therapy sessions,then hormones,followed by electrolysis(the hardest part) and FINALLY a series of surgeries!!

One other thing I observed during this time period living as Jen is disassociation from my old identity..The guy id!!Its like long gone!!I am not out in the public yet,I almost sent an E-mail ending in my signature being Jen(lol!!)..I don’t go to my old fb page that often as well!!Its so new!As I am on my fb all the time!!But now as Jen only!!As this is the Real me!!

Thank you!It was fun writing this post!!




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My review of JaneBrooke’s stunning erotica-Warehouse Wonder World


This was a hot captivating book!I enjoyed reading it soo much and hated the idea of sleeping before reading the whole book,so I did not sleep!I read the whole book in one sitting!

The story begins with stunning beautiful heroine’s arrival and abduction at the French railway station and she is taken to a warehouse.and the ride begins!Our super beautiful Mensa genius heroine,Clare,absolutely classy and unbelievably beautiful and vulnerable, is captured by this almost psychotic abductor who then proceeds to take her on a rousing journey of pain,humiliation and SHEER PLEASURE!As she goes through this unbelievably intense yet erotic series of lashings and tortures and elaborated machines,beautiful(as she is refereed to in the story which I really luved!)pleads with her abductor to stop and let her go,only to get more punishment..You have to read the book to get the idea as I am not able to describe it here(my knees and elbow-tips are ticklish now and I’m kinda trembling as I type this review!You get the picture??Right,yes this book is THAT good!)

I admire the book for its intense plot,a pure psychological genius!!Reading this book was like watching a psychological thriller/horror erotic movie,like a super-erotic version of the movie ‘Saw’ with a much better and most importantly,A FEMALE villain!!Plot is definitely a strong suit of the book and so is the character development!!It is hard to develop a story when you have just 2 characters to work around and that’s why this book is brilliant!!I luved both of the characters of the story!!I cried as the ‘Dancer’/”the beautiful'(Claire) endured sufferings,and I loved to hate our villain,the abductor,who is also a female,a super-strong and seemingly very cruel torturer who is so good at what she does and is very proud of it(rightfully so).Both characters are intense,equally captivating and I especially luved the ending of the book!!I was already sold to the book beforehand but the surprise twist at the end of the book really made me write this review right away!!I am a big fan of psychology in storyline and this book is a great psychological masterpiece apart from being an excellent read in erotica!Instead of being a gooey-Vanilla type story or a series of sexual encounters with no substantial storyline,this story ‘WWW’ as I call it takes you to a land so inhibited that it seems almost unreal,surreal!!And the ending of the book is truly a show stopper!!

This book makes a very good read when you are all alone in your room,comfy and willing to let go of your inhibitions and are ready for a wild ride in erotic dreamworld!!Any one who loves strong female character(s) led stories,lesbian theme and erotica in general is bound to love this book!Just be cozy in your bed,no worries for time,pour yourself a glass of wine and let yourself go in to this wild-ride of a book,but be warned:You are not going to be able to put the book down so you better not have job/assignment/school the next morn as you’d be too excited to sleep that night after reading the book,a fascinating story of BDSM,Bondage and dark fantasies!!









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My review of the book:The Hell of Osirak

This book just took my breath away!!It has two themes basically,which are intertwined brilliantly!The novel has elements of truth in it..And seems very plausible,very very real..I kinda find it hard to categorize this book as a novel themed on LGBT/Lesbian genera or as a historical fictional!!I’d say,the book belongs to both of these categories EQUALLY!!Which makes this book a masterpiece..It is very rare to find a lesbian themed book which is not erotica and NOT just a graphic description(s) of a series of sexual scenes..It is very tastefully written and the other pro-Israel/spy/Mossad theme steals the show!!

The danger Iraq’s Osirak nuke plant created for Israel was very real,Saddam Hussein WAS brutal enough to use chem weapons/poisonous gases on Iraq’s own people as we saw,Israel did herself and our world a big big favor by taking out his nukes…And the whole story is written on this backdrop..Israel has saved millions of lives by taking out Osirak..And the novel based on this real incident,shows much of how various state spy agencies interact,or at least interacted during that time..And shows us the complexities of their relations..

The other interesting aspect of the book was the dilemma lesbian agents have to face while working for these agencies.My heart was broken for Nikki Sinclair,the main character of the book as she has to sleep with men to gain intelligence.She is a strong willed character and she is very REAL in a sense,she is vulnerable,not invincible,and that makes you root for her!Her ordeal is heartbreaking,but her will to prevail is very strong,as she goes through her services as an agent for the UK(Britain),she experiences everlasting love form a fellow Israeli spy Dvora only to get her heart broken again and again,just to bounce back!!She’s NOT a female Matrix!She is very real and the reader can relate to that..Identify with her..I like that part the most!!

I am pro-Israel myself,very much actually but the novel has much broader appeal than just to pro-Israel crowd!!It is action packed and intense yet at the same time very sensual,and romantic..I would recommend the book regardless of your stance on Israel..If you’re pro-Israel,I guarantee you that you’ll luv the book as much as I did!This book is very versatile in its likely appeal to various audiences,pro-Israel,LGBT,Lesbian readers,Bleeding heart feminists(that would be me!!),lesbian feminists..a straight reader who loves historical fiction,fans of Middle Eastern conflict stories,a straight person window shopping on LGBT lifestyle.A straight gal curious about Bi/LGBT,A straight man who wants to dabble in lesbian world(No,You’re not going to get’em,it doesnt work that way!!Hormones at 6-8 weeks of age,baby!This is as good as you are going to get in our subculture,deal with it!)This book is for EVERYBODY!!So I would suggest you give this book a shot!

If you are a fan of a strong female lead character,you’re in for a treat!!You get two of them!!As both Nikki and Dvora are very strong willed women,and their romance is incredible..I was soo eager to see them together thr-ought the book!!And I luved it so much when they are together!The story has a number of strong female characters!And a real treat for feminists who like this type of story!!I could not put the book down!!I read it under 2 days!!And when battery of my laptop died down,I traveled 3 hours to go back home early to continue reading!!I love both these genres,Lesbian and pro-Israel spy/Mossad type of stories and this is the best of both of these worlds!!

I’d luv to write in more detail about the plot but I won’t as I dont want to give away spoilers!!But in a nutshell,this story depicts life of Nikki Sinclair,a lesbian agent for the Brits,who falls in eternal love with Israeli Mossad agent Dvora,their time together,the ordeals Nikki had to face,her being a lesbian and having to sleep with bearded sweaty men(Ugh!)to gain intel,her stubborn chiefs,she has to endure two brutal rapes which totally broke my heart and it just made me want to go there and protect her!The rape scenes in the story are brutal and sinister but they contribute to the story a lot and make Nikki a more powerful character..Her encounters with Dvora are intense and super-sensual and I luved reading every word describing them!!The ending kinda surprised me and was kinda unexpected..

I really really enjoyed reading the book,I couldn’t think of anything else till I was done with the book for two days!!It was a surreal experience on my part,for this book captured my attention with such interest!!I really like stories with a strong female lead,and this was a gem of a story for me!!Pro-Israel storyline really did the magic!!And cpatured my heart!!This book is gold and I’d suggest you just go for it!!You’d be happy that you did!



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A begining

Hi all!!Thanks for taking time off your busy lives and reading this..I am starting this blog to document my journey to the new-right me!!I feel fascinated about it,fantastic too!I have a medical background educationally and I want to tell my tale from all the perspectives I can have,a doctor,a student,a commentator,a mental health sciences enthusiast and simply ME,a girl in a boy’s body,finally on her way to be herself!I do think it could be a good tale to tell!!I hope so!!


I have always been a big fan of mental health sciences,I want a career in it,now some might think how can some one who has ‘issues’ be an authority on this subject??The question is valid only if you are one of those who believe that we,LGBT are abominations or something on that line!True,that many of us need mental health assistance,but its not a disease unless our being LGBT makes our daily lives dysfunctional!!Ie the problem lies in the society surrounding YOU(LGBT person) AND how that person reacts to the society!!It is certainly a two street,my point being,if you live in a society where you don’t get stoned(ME countries/African countries) or shamefully segregated(India/South Asia)..Ie ,if you are in the west,you have a good shot at your life as LGBT(the west other than some Red states)..


I do believe that this fear of LGBT,homophobia has its root in 2 factors..(1)Fear that such a couple would be unable to procreate,true to an extent,though with IVF and sciences this has changed for good,but I believe this is the cause why you see anti-Homosexuality sentiments in various religious books,as they were written in times when the world simply needed more people,and homosexuality would have derailed this motto,I am not justifying this expressed holy Homophobia,I am just trying to think logically about it!!(2)The society might have fear that such a person would be dysfunctional and wouldn’t contribute enough to it,now this is society’s own doing in most parts as they hate us,LGBT,and rejection leads to low self esteem leads to depression,add this to the misery of the feeling of being born in a wrong body and its hard to remain productive and functional..remedy for this in today’s ages-Just be hyper-functional/workaholic,undo this fear..The more successful you are in your career,the more you will be accepted!!

I am just putting my thoughts out there,I hope to write much more as the time passes and I make progress in my quest!!You’re most welcome in this journey!Thanks for your 10 minutes!!